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Given the choice today between editing, uploading & posting a bunch of pics we already shot for members OR shooting something new, I decided on shooting something new. Here’s the result:

Retro Nighty with Black Lace

I’ll get the gallery of many yummy pink layers posted ASAP for members on Wednesday; we also shot a video using a couple of toys so there’s that to look forward to down the road, too.

Other stuff:

*Our dog is going in for x-rays tomorrow, teeth-cleaning and a repeat surgery on a little cyst on the rim of her eye that she keeps worrying & getting infected. She is really old, but still enjoys life — it’s painful to watch her struggling and whimpering to just lie down lately and her hind end is just all fucked up. The x-rays will tell them whether it’s arthritis, which will mean giving her anti-inflammatories, or a nerve problem which I think they said would mean cortisone treatments. Or maybe I have that backwards. Anyway, she’s going to have her lights knocked out tomorrow and have to wear an Elizabethan collar; it’s always so pathetically comical and tragic to see her coming out of anesthesia unable to navigate through doorways due to the wide cone encircling her head. Pet lovers, you know what I’m talking about.

*I signed up for NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) after years of only remembering it at the END of the month when everyone starts bragging about finishing. The other day we were watching Jeopardy and one of the contestants shared how many years he’s done it, so . . . there was my reminder IN ADVANCE this time! I don’t know if I’ll actually do it, but you can read the title and a blurb of what I might write if I do.

*Want to see more pictures? They’re naughty, so they require an extra click:
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Check out katstories.tumblr.com – I just added her to my blog links. How she describes herself & blog:

My stage name is Kat and I’ve danced at around 30 clubs in the Portland area, a handful that have gone into oblivion forever, and a few in other places. This is where I weigh in and give my $1 worth (more polite than $.02) on anything in the media having to do with stripping and strip club culture. It’s an interesting time right now with no shortage of things to make fun of, what with teenagers and celebrities (Sigourney Weaver!?) dabbling in pole dancing and strippers winning Oscars. I also write personal anecdotes when I’m feeling inspired to give perfect strangers TMI and ensure that I’ll never date again.

I’m only letting myself read a few entries at a time, savoring every one. Anyone in Portland feels like our neighbors, so there’s insta-fondness there but if you check her out and happen to live far away I *think* you’ll still be hooked.

What I’ve read so far is raw and honest enough that I wouldn’t be surprised if it disappears one of these days (the best and truest ones often do), so read up while you can!

Yesterday I woke up NEEDING to fuck after having vivid, happy, kissing and sex dreams about a certain married man and two hot younger women with me somewhere in the middle.

With so much work on our plates I thought maybe my arousal would dissipate after breakfast and I could get cracking right away, but my desire to fuck just got more urgent so I asked Delia to meet me in bed after brushing our teeth and stuff (no, I’m not the type of person who needs everything to be clean, but sometimes it’s nice).

We turned on some music, kissed each other, groped each other, did some grinding, and fucked. Though we eventually wound up coming together in my favorite position with me on top, Delia served up some straightforward pumping in a variety of other positions first which I REALLY NEEDED. Just some rhythmic, direct, insistent fucking accompanied by confused images running through my head of a parade of people fucking me. It’s amazing how into Delia I can feel and so connected to her while at the same time my brain is populated by fantasies of fucking other people, too.

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Good news: today Delia’s new site, DeliaTS.com, is officially accepting new members!

Delia's New Site

If you haven’t checked Delia out recently, definitely hit her new pics page and the free video sample (I have a hand, literally, in some of the clips).

We finished it awhile ago but we before announcing it we had to get approval from our payment processor and Visa which takes times. Her new site is a continuation of the old one so I’m not sure how much of a difference it will make to current fans and members (if you are a member to one of our sites now, you automatically have access to this one, too, and all of our others). The big thing for us is that it’s in line with her identity as a transwoman and looks shinier and more up-to-date so we do a better job of accurately selling her. I know, that’s a big turn-off to some people, being reminded that we have to actually make money on our sites, but it SHOULD be a turn-ON; the more successful we are, the more and better porn we can make! Eventually we would love to shoot people for her old sites, both Trixie’s Houseboy AND DeliaCD, but right now we don’t have the time or money. Someday!

I am so much healthier physically than I was a year ago and think we’re at an age and approaching a stage in life where we might become more sexually adventurous with other people. Not right now, but soon. I’m feeling really frustrated mentally and physically because I have years of catching-up to do on geeky webmaster work — unstimulating desk-job stuff that requires a lot of concentration, patience, and sitting still staring at the computer for hours on end. It’s all stuff we need to finish make more money and pay our debts which are all coming to a giant head. I’m having a hard time not complaining about how I really want to be OUTSIDE enjoying my body or INSIDE FUCKING or dancing or doing more creative things with our time than soul-sucking technical stuff, but it has to be done and it WILL pay off. And there will be more fucking soon, I can FEEL it. Just not as soon as I want.

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We’ve got shows and members-only chat scheduled tomorrow night (Friday) and Saturday. Members CLICK HERE for our schedule/exact times and to gain entrance to them. Hope to see you there!

After eight years of hearing that my blog is most people’s (even some members’) favorite part of my site, I decided to make it Stop-Number-One when you hit TastyTrixie.com, totally integrating it into the free area of my site and making it the focus. Instead of trying to create a structure and design out of thin air for all of my content, I’m (finally) taking advantage of awesome Wordpress tools that are already out there so I can focus on things I really ENJOY doing, instead of busting my brain and ass making half-assed, unworkable, amateur designs.

I’m posting it up before it’s totally done because I’m afraid if I don’t get it up NOW, I won’t want to post any new entries in my old blog (which will stay up as archives so that links will stay active/won’t break/die).

Yes, I’m losing some of the uniqueness of my old homemade designs, but I’d rather have my work be organized and accessible. Also, I’m sick of porn industry people making fun of my wacky attempts at design (but not so wacky that people didn’t like them and other webgirls even COPIED them, like, almost exactly).

Most importantly, I can feel proud to promote my site and blog again. For years now everything here has been outdated and it felt too depressing and large for me to fix it (especially not wanting to throw time and energy into something that would quickly become outdated and have to do it all over again). I didn’t even *want* people to come to my site, it looked so outdated and confusing with old pictures misrepresenting my current age and body type, old text misrepresenting my girlfriend and our relationship, etc. As a result, I have less traffic and not enough signups (people who pay to see the porn in my members-only area). Now I can get happy about inviting people to come here again. AND spend more time blogging instead of worrying about how stupid my blog LOOKED.

To Do:

• My links are messed up & I still need to add a lot more of them, more widgets, etc.
• TONS more pages to write/add/pornify & convert from old site stuff
• make a new free video sample
• Fix the template so people can comment on PAGES in addition to posts.

Concerns:

• Will my site look generic and fake now? Too much like other blogs?
• Will I feel pressure to always make the most recent post AWESOME since it’s the first impression people will have, and a) not post enough for fear of not being AWESOME enough, b) veer away from posting anything mundane and/or “too” honest/”negative” about things, and/or c) wind up being too fakey/hyper-pornographic in an ultimately counterproductive attempt to reel in sales?
• Wordpress is great and all, but it does introduce a lot more complexity, headaches & needs for babysitting.
• Will people looking for porn who are accustomed to a certain “tour” design for personality sites GET that this IS also a porn site? Or will they just be like, “oh, blog, generic, nothing naked to see here . . . nothing more to get beyond this boring, unoriginal template and all of these annoying WORDS”?
• -OR- will people think, “awesome! another free porn blog where everything is free free free and all I do is skim through it for the free free free pussy pics stolen from other sites that I totally don’t care about and have no intention of supporting!”? In other words, have all the free porn blogs shaped people’s responses to seeing a sex blog so that they view it in a totally depersonalized, ENTIRELY freeloading pic-trader way? Will they think I’m just some hobbyist webmaster/blogger dude/chick sitting here distributing a bunch of free shit?
• Is it too overwhelming? Too bright? Too RED?
• Is it loading too slow because there are too many dynamic elements?
• Do I really want Twitter fucking my whole layout & load time up when it’s crapped out?
• What about nudity on the front page? If I hide the pornyiest stuff behind cuts (where you have to click for “more”) and on clearly-labeled pages, will it be TOO hidden for people with urgent jacking needs and again they just won’t get that there’s more going on here than billions of words?

Awesome things:

• blends in well with my members-only area
• the search function actually WORKS
• Recognizable, USEFUL navigational structure: good for visitors and VERY GOOD for my brain – a huge relief; it’s like finally having a closet with hangers and drawers and shelves when all I had before was a giant box on the floor to throw my clothes into. Structure is what my brain needs to have the freedom to be creative without so much chaos.
• I don’t need to completely revamp everything whenever I want to add something new
• lots of other boring (on the outside) things like many easy ways to customize shit, use cool plugins, better search engine optimization, “cuts” (if I have a long post I can hide some behind the “more” link), etc.
• switching to wordpress and really figuring out how to make the most of it (especially now that it’s come so far) makes all of our other smaller porn & special interest blog projects more doable AND makes part of our revamps of SpyOnUs.com and Trixie.com more manageable.
• I can stop fretting about having to redesign my site – I’m so glad it’s not hanging over my head anymore like a giant ominous sandbag of timesuck inevitably ending in mediocre results
• it should stand the test of time / be functional and good-looking for a few years, I hope
• in the process of looking for make-do free wordpress templates I found this fairly-rad software, Artisteer, to make our own (which is what I used to create this theme).

Need/hope to fix:

• embedded videos in old posts aren’t showing up
• tags & categories are all fucked up (and most REALLY old posts don’t have them at all, nor do they all have titles)
• old comments are here and visible if you click on the post pages, but they’re not indicated in the footer’s comment count
• not entirely sure ALL of my old posts came over; need to check on that
• some formatting is messed up on old posts (pics not centered, blockquotes look fucked up . . . not a big deal, but it would be nice to fix it)
• need to add a plugin to help filter out spam comments
• I need to finally make sure I understand how to set up cron jobs so I can have posts queued up to post automatically.

Eventually:

• I’d like to have someone customize a layout that’s more original / exclusive . . . unless, of course, this works so well there’s no need to

This redesign is about four years overdue and I would LOVE to sit here and gripe about more technical matters that my fellow bloggers and webwhores could relate to, but I’m trying not to continue whining about how MOTHERFUCKING TIME CONSUMING AND BORING AND FRUSTRATING this process has been. Oops. Oh wait, AND SO NOT SEXY!!! Instead I’m going to enjoy being fifty steps closer to being happy with my site and celebrate having a plan and tools for revamping the rest of our outdated sites. I am also inches from promising myself to never fully rely only on ourselves to design anything important AGAIN. I like coming up with SOME ideas, but we don’t have the time or know-how to do EVERYTHING. I am really desperate to have more time to fuck and actually MAKE content instead of working on the boring cosmetic issues of how we present and organize and promote it.

So! What do you think?

I must’ve had my head up my ass when I worried that reserving a cabin for three nights was too LONG for a porn-shooting trip without running water or electricity or phones or internet of any kind. More like NOT LONG ENOUGH.

Being in the woods on the Olympic Peninsula, the proper WET woods southwest of us (unlike what we have here in the dry rainshadow), always feels like heaven to me. I’m not exaggerating: HEAVEN. Like what it would/should look and feel like if there were to be that kind of a fantasy afterlife (except I wouldn’t have to be scared of having my scalp ripped off by a cougar in heaven, but I digress).

Anyway, it was great. FANTASTIC, the level of peace and tranquility I felt there. The lack of pressure and the way everything worked out just right. The way we had so much beautiful SPACE to sprawl out and shoot in with very little chance of intrusion. The way the weather couldn’t have been more perfect. The way we walked for miles.

And when we got home? I pretty much instantly fell apart into a nervous wreck.

It’s not that I think running off and living a “simple” life is the Answer to All My Problems or something I want on a daily basis (I don’t), but experiencing it for a few days did highlight some of the things that I desperately need to fix in real life (like not having so MANY options and obligations every second of every day).

It’s a small fix, but we’re going to get rid of DirecTV completely and of course just keep plugging away on the usual stuff with a better reminder of what we could have if we got ahead, just a little bit: the freedom to fall behind and drop out more often . . . AND make better porn because of it. It’s amazing how doing so much of my job every fucking day gets in the way of DOING MY JOB RIGHT.

Also, I have serious problems being distracted by every day life and PEOPLE and the noises they make and our computers and all of our shit, though, so coming home was like putting my head in a blender after all of that peace and quiet and fresh air. I know it sucks for voyeurs who want to watch a blissed-out horny woman rolling around in ecstasy or at least looking fresh and cute and bisected by cleavage but instead get me, frowning and muttering under my breath about how I’m going to shoot myself in the head if trivial problems and distractions interrupt my flow just one more fucking time. I am so sorry that has been the story of my lifecams for far too long.

Anyway, I would manually scratch all the skin off my left arm using the fingernails of my right if it would mean I could spend a third of my life in a cabin in the woods, peeing outside and eating pickled sausage on the back porch. Unfortunately I’ll have to go about things the hard way: plodding forward, tiny steps at a time.

FYI: I’ll try to post more about the magic of our little cabin experience. Also, I’m posting the rest of these pictures of me by the river on Monday for members. Delia is posting a set as I type this: see SAMPLE HERE – it is SO FUCKING AWESOME to be able to get almost any angle you want from whatever distance you want unconstrained by four walls.

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We have webcam shows (with masturbation and all that jazz) and members-only chat scheduled for tomorrow (Sunday) and Monday, so check out our schedule if you’re a member and perhaps we’ll see you then!

We’re about to head out the door soon (only an hour later than planned) and won’t be home until Friday. There’s no power or running water where we’re going, so we won’t be responding to email, broadcasting cams, etc. Not that you need running water for those things, but you DO need power.

I’ll try to tweet and post twitpics if we’re in range for such things.

Keep your fingers crossed that we get a bunch of pretty porn shot! Weather looks great and the forecast is for no rain EVEN THOUGH WE’RE HEADING INTO THE BOWELS OF THE RAINFOREST! Perfection . . .

Friends with our phone numbers: if it seems like someone read my blog and decided to hack me while we were gone, please give us a call; it often seems like suspicious shit happens whenever we’re gone and I announce it here.

Wondering why there’s been a deathly quiet here on my blog? It’s because I’m revamping in a major way and don’t want to post here and then have to manually import into the REVAMP.

I hope you won’t have to wait much longer; I’ve promised myself not to wait until it’s *perfect* to unveil it (partly because that won’t actually be possible; there are some things I can’t fix until it goes live), especially since we’ll be launching DeliaTS.com around the same time (the other reason why things are quiet here – we’re juggling multiple “projects” which is typical, but they’re feeling very urgent right now and sweet jesus I can’t even type about it, trying to convey the enormity of pressure, without starting to hyperventilate).

As usual, tons of things I *want* to blog about (like how Conan will never be the same anymore and I can’t stand his new set — really IMPORTANT things that make me cry myself to sleep or keep me up all night lamenting the passage of time and inevitability of change). Of course I’m still updating inside with porn for our members, but we have GOT to get this other shit done. So you can look at pretty fun things! I know you’re sick of hearing me bitch & moan about how outdated our sites are and wonder what is TAKING so long for us to just fix them already! I really wish I were skilled enough to snap my fingers and have it be done and over.

Anyway, we are going to be gone (much longer than I *want* to be gone) this week trying to shoot a bunch of porno in the woods so looks like it will be mid-September before you can see some of our work come to fruition. And actually be entertaining or mildly amusing or more absorbing than posts like this one.

Thanks for sticking with me, friends, foes and fans! I hope you will like our new site designs better than I like Conan’s new set with all those light blue backgrounds with all those distracting LINES.

I just *know* what goes around, COMES around and for every time I’ve shrieked at the tv screen about that annoying frosted section of plexiglass behind Conesy’s head or those flimsy-looking wooden borders around his super mario bros. screen with their annoying verticality and stick-ness, there will be ten people who HATE the way I’m changing up my site. It’s not soothing! It’s too busy! IT IS DIFFERENT, THEREFORE BAD! And holy shit, it’s totally not sexy at all! Poetic justice for all. Or at least for Trixie. ON THE WAY!

Oh dear GOD! THE LINES ARE NOT STRAIGHT! The lines behind Conan are not straight! They are not running perpendicular to the bottom of the frame!! Oh, Jesus KILL ME — those motherfucking lines are not straight, or if they are for a moment I know it only takes the slightest movement for everything to be out of alignment once again!! And that wooden base! IT’S TOTALLY NOT RUNNING PARALLEL TO THE BOTTOM OF THE FRAME! THE HORROR!!!!

Yes, the thoughts in my brain are TOTALLY FUCKING ANNOYING. And now you have some idea of why it takes me forever to finish anything that involves building things that are supposed to have straight lines. I can’t abide things being out of whack in relation to each other, yet I’m not smart or talented or patient enough to bring them INto alignment.

And that, my friends, is why I often have to lock myself in a dark room and bury myself under mounds of pillows to calm down.

Seriously, though; all of those lines are REALLY ill-advised for shooting any kind of moving pictures. And while I can actually tolerate them if I try, it’s impossible for me to actually RELAX with that mess of crookediness happening on the television screen.