Radio Silence
September 22nd, 2008 | Author: TastyTrixie
Tonight while Delia was at her AA meeting I really wanted to play piano and sing, but as usual having the audio on the cams makes me feel totally self-conscious. I know I shouldn’t be, that even if I suck ass it’s entertaining, but that doesn’t matter; I want to be alone.
It’s not that hard to turn the audio off on the cams, but I feel guilty about it and worry that people just joining for the first time will check the cams, not hear anything, and think I lied about broadcasting audio. On the other hand, I feel guilty about not doing something I enjoy and value (making music for the sheer pleasure of it AND to practice/improve) so I think I’m going to start setting that time aside when Delia’s at her meetings for alone time at the piano and just turn the audio off on the cams. I might even log in a special silent cam since I don’t mind people WATCHING from a voyeuristic angle, I just don’t want to be heard, critiqued, etc.
Maybe if I keep that up we’ll start having monthly or weekly “performances” or something so the mystery can be revealed and to motivate me to focus on doing more than just noodling around.
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