SYMBOLS & CONTROVERSY
Last month I did a show with my Jackhammer Jesus. Here's a little free video clip from the show (I don't need to tell you this is not work safe, do I?):


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To tell you the truth, I didn't pull this particular dildo out of my toy box to TRY to be controversial . . . it's just that Jesus is the perfect size, he's lovely, and he was the only clean thing I had in easy reach. It was a utilitarian choice, not a desire to be blasphemously provocative. Besides, I personally don't think it's offensive to masturbate with a crucifix-shaped phallic object, even if the form of Jesus is slapped onto it. People do SO many more offensive things in the name of Christianity I don't see the harm in sticking a cross in my vagina.

Fortunately, none of the five-hundred-plus viewers said a word in protestation when I slid the Jackhammer into my slot. One guy made a little light-hearted joke about it, and that was all for about fifteen minutes. I noticed the viewer count remained consistent during this time . . . if anything I *gained* viewers, rather than losing them to my sinful display.

But my oh MY! After this time elapsed and the show was nearly over, suddenly people piped up with criticism, shock, and disapproval. But why didn't they say something sooner? Like, when I first began masturbating with the supposedly sacred symbol? Why did it take them fifteen minutes to speak up and lecture me? Why didn't they leave rather than subjecting themselves to my sordid profane performance?

Because. They were too busy jacking off.

How attitudes DO change after folks have gotten their rocks off! People who didn't say a negative word while they were still masturbating suddenly were mortally offended. What caused this change of heart? Apparently they spilled their seed and in their refractory period felt restored to their pedestals of Christian judgement. Oh the guilt, the shame, the HYPOCRISY. What extraordinary assholes to jack off to the whole thing and then accuse ME of wrongdoing without acknowledging and confessing their own participation.

I can appreciate BEING offended by the Jackhammer Jesus dildo, but not going so far as to get all self-righteous and judgemental about it. I respect the discomfort many people might feel about seeing a cherished symbol used in a context that's inappropriate given their own beliefs and emotions. I respect if people leave a show like that and respect if they simply tell me they don't like it. But don't get all up on your high horse after jacking off to it.

While I respect that some people might be bothered by seeing something "blasphemous", I don't understand someone thinking it's a big issue for anyone except themselves. Assuming God exists, I don't think he's such a big pussy that it will really hurt his feelings if I use a symbol "disrespectfully" or "tastelessly". It always cracks me up when people's faith is so shaky that they believe their gods and symbols need "protection" by and from humans. Like their belief system can't handle challenges or questioning. Don't they realize that admitting such insecurities just undermines the supposed potency and strength of their religion?

Speaking of symbols, I can't imagine any situation in which torching a flag would lend credence to someone's talking point, but I also can't understand someone freaking out about some idiot lighting a flag on fire. Going so far as to try to amend the constitution to ban flag desecration is so fucking moronic, it makes me sick. And listen, I am the type of girl who cries when I hear The Star Spangled Banner. I am the type of girl who believes that in all public schools everywhere (in the U.S.), it should still be required to say the Pledge of Allegiance every day (while it's fine to keep your mouth shut during parts you don't agree with or even the entire thing, you better at least get off your ass and acknowledge our country in the ritual of allegiance). But part of the majesty of our flag and what it represents is that we're supposed to be, you know, free? That people can spew whatever shitty moronic opinions they want without being hauled off in the paddywagon?

Our flag is supposed to represent a country with a superior system of government, and in my idealistic patriotic little heart, it's supposed to mean that we have a smart and superior system. It's so NOT smart or superior for the government to try to fuck with our constitution with all of these fearful, petty, discriminatory, primitive, freedom-diminishing bans on things like gay marriage, or flag-burning, or all the other idiotic crap amendments the Rethuglicans have been pushing. I seriously believe we have a superior (though immature) system of government here in MY country, but it seems like the majority of the population these days is hell bent on making it completely inferior and on par with a fucking police state.

As long as no one forces YOU to burn a flag, or forces YOU to stick a cross up your ass, or forces YOU to marry someone of the same sex . . . how do any of those activities impact you at all? They *don't*. Unless you're a little crybaby who is emotionally traumatized every time someone challenges your belief system and really, that just makes your belief system look shaky, insecure, and completely irrational. There is no "victim" in any of these would-be crimes except in the minds of overwrought simpletons.

To tell you the truth, lately I hold out no hope for our country to avoid plummeting into a very desperate state of affairs. Too many people just don't have the critical thinking skills to sort out and prioritize things that should be very very simple and obvious. Our public schools have been so depressingly underfunded while discipline and standards in them have fallen, that there's apparently no way that our population has the brain power to even vote a crooked, stupid, selfish, lying S.O.B. like George W. out of office. The fact that people embrace this evil half-wit but still get their panties in a wad over Bill Clinton and his blow jobs indicates that many of us are, indeed, too fucking stupid to govern ourselves. So fine, we'll let the oil barons and neocons do it for us. THANKS!!!

I never ever thought I would desecrate a flag, but if the flag desecration amendment goes through, the first thing I will do is shoot a maxi-flag set for BloodyTrixie.com. If those idiots want to shit all over the constitution, I'm going to bleed all over our flag.

I've gotten to the point where I'm basically ready to go to prison for no crime at all. Bleeding on a flag or refusing to allow the Department of Justice to invade my home without a search warrant or any probable cause that I've even committed a crime simply because I make porn depicting consenting adults . . . fine. Throw me in prison you fucking assholes. I'll be proud to be among the first in the wave of people denied liberty and justice in the U.S. in the coming years. The guilt is on THEIR shoulders, not mine.

I'm 95% certain that if they don't get an injunction on 2257, I am going to write a letter to the Attorney General which will also be posted prominently on my sites and let him know that I will never, EVER, comply with it and he can come and get me now. True patriots will DEFY these measures designed to destroy our constitutional rights.
posted by Trixie at 7/12/2005 02:18:00 PM -