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A couple of samples from the gallery I just posted for members:

I don’t think I’d feel like I need to lose fifteen pounds if we could afford for me to specialize in long line girdles and corsets.

Speaking of what we can/can’t afford, I know that I need to cut some obligations out in order to have time to really tweak and market our sites appropriately. For some reason I’m having a really difficult time deciding which things I need to stop doing, at least temporarily. I’ve been freaking out a lot and feeling anxious/overwhelmed. I don’t think my priorities are set in a way that’s effective and it’s hard for me to rearrange them and then accept that the things at the bottom will have to be trimmed off. I am trying to do it all (and have been for too many years) and it’s just not working. I’m sucking at everything and not really focusing my best efforts on the things I’m actually GOOD at and the things that make the most money.

It’s hard for me to let go.

One of the things I realized this month (besides that we NEED to take days off) is that we will have to 1) limit the number of miles we drive/trips we take each month and/or in rapid succession and 2) make sure visiting family doesn’t get sidelined in that equation in favor of work or friends. It’s not because of fuel costs, it’s because we live so far away from everyone that the HOURS spent in the car NOT working (except to fuck up my back/body) cost too much, plus it breaks my heart going for such long stretches without seeing my nephew. I also had a major meltdown awhile back with extreme guilt over neglecting to visit my grandma in over a year. Long story short, I’m stressed out and tossing ideas around in my head to reduce that stress.

Eventually I am going to have to learn how to forgive myself for not being able to do everything, and allow myself to succeed working from a shorter/different to-do list.

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