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So!

Sorry for lack of updates . . . last month we spontaneously decided to move and are now hip (neck?) deep in the moving process.

The house we’re moving into is beautiful, but half the size of the house we’re in now (unless you count an enormous amount of additional headroom / heavenly high ceilings as added square footage). Because we’re moving both our home AND our work/business, it’s triple-tricky. I have a tendency to underestimate the difficulty of tasks/projects and overestimate my ability to organize and complete them, so this many weeks into the process I’ve moved past teary frustration and am in zombie-like just . . . keep . . . going . . . be . . . over . . . soon . . . mode.

I am a very slow zombie. The kind who is easily distracted, turned-around and fooled. The kind of zombie whose limbs fall off and make her lose her balance and then she starts looking around, like, “where did the lower half of my leg limp off to?”

SO! This apology for a lack of updates is for the past few weeks, but maybe also the next couple of weeks. I will probably need to regenerate my limbs and HEAD, and its quite possible we will have some electrical and/or internet problems in the new place that could further extend this instability of working life before comforting and productive routines can be established. But once they are? LOOK OUT! I think life will be beautiful and exciting, and eventually that will be reflected in our sites. Not that life and our sites aren’t already beautiful and exciting, but . . . yeah. There are so many different kinds of beautiful and exciting!! We’ve been ramping up to lovely things over the past couple of months, with this move being an unexpected part of that growth and magic.

Growth and magic can be really tiring, though, and I am even less socially accessible. Thanks for bearing with us and pulling for us!

I wanted to get an update (a boobs ‘n masturbation video) posted for members much sooner than tomorrow, but tomorrow it will have to be (along with Delia’s update, a very hot foresty photo set which I still need to edit since she’s in LA).

The reason my videos won’t be ready TONIGHT is that my day was totally interrupted by a couple of PROBLEMS. A fairly large problem with someone being a total shithead to me on the phone and threatening to remove our access to our favorite spycam site that we’ve been broadcasting on since 2002. It could be counterproductive for me to go into the details, but I hope he doesn’t fuck us and our members that way.

My heart was already pounding away even before that extended drama because the pit bull returned and was roaming around in our yard again. Fortunately it was totally chill with our (old, tired, tied-up) dog for the short amount of time they were sniffing each other before I got the owner to come get it, but in the space before that (seeing it first in the neighbor’s yard wondering if it was safe for me to go get the mail and let out our dog, etc.). Then I felt bad for being so fearful even though we have good cause after our first run-in with the dog.

Anyway, the situation with our spycams has been stressful and time-consuming today. I’m glad I started the day out right with some exercise and also some good news that our payment processor semi-fixed a big mistake they made which has been making it difficult to promote our sites the past couple of months. Still, I feel extra guilty now for not getting more work done earlier this week (which is stupid because I was totally sleep deprived and then my sister was here with her beautiful darling wonderful energy-requiring children and then I did REALLY need a day to catch up on sleep and silence and staring into space).

Someday someday SOMEDAY I’ll have a week to just blog. In more interesting ways. Someday, right? I thought this would be a week of either massive productivity or lots of book reading, exercise, and phone sex but it just hasn’t worked out that way. Instead it’s been a week of other mostly-good things (and TOO-good things, like ice cream, garlic prawn rolls, pan au chocolat, potato salad, pasta, and wonderfully stupid movies like Mall Cop and Interview with the Vampire).

Anyway, I’m sorry for not posting new porn for members yet this week and I hope our main spycams are still up tomorrow!

I’m afraid my previous post made it sound like I don’t give a fuck about people’s problems and that as soon as people complain about anything I just plug my ears and run for the hills; that’s totally not true and I feel bad if I made anyone think I am not receptive to hearing about or reading about the shit people are dealing with. I was just afraid that I was coming off as one of those livejournal types where every single post is about how their processed cheese became grainy for some reason and their medication ran out and they didn’t win the ebay auction for that great limited edition Jack Skellington figurine and maybe it was for the best since they lost their job at the espresso stand and had to drop two out of three classes at community college because their teachers were mean and why do their boyfriends want to lick them down there when obviously that’s so gross and they don’t know what to do because they found out their boyfriends looked at porn once. I don’t want to be one of those people and that remark was made out of self-consciousness, not criticism of others (except those annoying livejournal types I described). I was NOT referring to any of my friends or blogs I regularly read on purpose whose troubles I WANT to hear/read about. Not that I want them to have troubles, but I am interested in and care about whatever is going on with them. Fuck, sometimes I actually do care about those LJ folks, too, and am bizarrely interested in their ebay problems.