Easter Goodness: Cute AND Cummy!

Last year I painted Delia’s balls like Easter Eggs and took pictures and video of her doing a holiday-appropriate fertility kind of thing, culminating in creamy egg-filling landing on a dandelion.

You know dandelions are edible, right? And so is creamy egg filling! Cum-eating is one of my wife’s specialties. I’d say she does it in over half of her videos, and I think this is the PERFECT time of year to combine cuteness with cumminess!

This year she posted the Easter Bunny picture set; we shared thirty of my favorites over on her blog if you want to see more!

My shadow is not in ANY of those thirty pictures, by the way … but this is definitely my preferred format for making appearances these days: barely visible. Just a hint of Trixie. SHADOW Trixie! Man-behind-the-camera Trixie. Sunshine-on-my-shoulders Trixie.

As the days get longer I do feel more like coming out. More hopeful I’ll feel more visibly radiant one of these days soonish.

Staying off of social media helps. Easter is actually the one day I specifically resolved a few years ago to never look at what other people are saying or doing. I may not need to do anything to celebrate Easter myself, but I do find a lot of joy in a wide variety of Easter stories, rituals, traditions, etc. Including the story of the resurrection of Jesus.

While I appreciate and understand criticisms of Christianity — like how paganism was co-opted, perverted, criminalized and lethally punished by Christians, and Easter is a particularly good example of that — I’m still fed by some of those stories I grew up with. When you’re a kid, those things are real and bible stories are some of the first paranormal stories you hear and see PICTURES with rays of sunshine breaking out in all kinds of tragic places. The image of the stone being rolled away and the mystery and hope of his body being gone, and of him appearing to people who loved him afterwards are beautiful stories that most people need in one form or another.

While the Christian stories are understandably stupid and/or too inextricably tied to ugliness and horror for many people (and nobody should be forced to honor or respect what is just pure scary bullshit to them), some of us still love simple aspects of those stories and want to bask in the rapture of them. The stuff that old songs are about that have made people throw their heads back and arms into the air for centuries, craving love and relief and for magic to be real, or at least to suspend disbelief long enough to enjoy the stories that tell us they are so. It just feels more powerful when you participate in it with your voice and body.

On Easter I don’t want to be around or listen to people who tell me not to fuck outside like rabbits or not to believe in Jesus. Neither one of those peoples do I want to listen to so much, or share my voice or body or suspension of disbelief with. Which is part of why I’m being invisible a lot lately. And it is good.


New Vlog for Members

Do you like listening to me chat and struggle with my words with my cleavage bared and my hands fluttering wildly? If so, you’ll enjoy the new year vlog I posted for members yesterday!

JOIN with HALF-OFF a site membership for access to videos & pics I shoot of my wife, and ~15 years of my big natural boobs, expressive hands & a veritable shit-ton of rambling (my members-only area is included with Delia’s) >>>>>

Happy Birthday / Spring Site Sale!

Today is my birthday! What do I want? Two things:


I already gave myself the first gift. Yesterday I sat at the computer for eleven hours tinkering with my site, and it felt GREAT! Here’s some of what I did:

  • added a sweet little video of me and my big boobs in a green lace teddy
  • moved outdated things off the members-only home page
  • revisited retro design elements I still love & want to revamp & incorporate into future designs
  • mocked up & posted a new temporary home page
    • with a bigger spot to feature new vlogs
    • vlog NOT using flash anymore
  • added links to THREE new super-unique friend sites added to our network in January that our members now have access to
  • recorded and posted a new vlog


It’s not perfect and feels temporary, but that’s (still) the great thing about internet publishing; no mistake or rush-job has to live on in perpetuity on your own sites, and there are always new (and old) opportunities to improve. Which is a great reminder to celebrate alongside SPRING TIME! So I did some spring cleaning to start out my 45th year in the world a little bit fresher. I turned 44 today, but I think that makes this upcoming year my 45th, right?

To celebrate my birthday and the spring equinox, I set up a sale for you! We’ll run it through this weekend and the first day of spring (March 20th):

Monthly Subscription

$15 off your first month
$9.95 for a whole month!
  • $9.95 for first month, rebilling at $17.95 each month after

  • Be my birthday buddy on a budget 😉


Big Bday Subscriptions

Gift a little extra (or a lot!)
$40 & up
  • 30-day non-rebilling memberships available at

  • $40 ♣ $60 ♣ $80 ♣ $99 ♣ $149 ♣ $199 ♣ $249 ♣ $499 ♣ $749 ♣ $969


When you join, you’ll have access to ALL of our sites: mine AND Delia’s plus seven more!

  • New updates
  • Archives going all the way back to 2002.
  • homemade in the Pacific Northwest …. so much green perfect for diving into springtime!


Whether you’re a member or not, thanks for visiting my blog and following our story over the years. It is a gift to me just that you keep coming back. :)

Next week I’ll start giving away books here AND share another 30-day-long FREE gift to myself with you!

Merriment with Santa!

greeting Santa in modest white nightgown


Leggy on Santa's lap

flashing my beaver at Santa

Spreading my legs for Santa

Santa licks my nipple

split tail spread by Santa

squeezed & fondled by Santa

JOIN NOW for the full-sized gallery! Almost 150 photos & video to come :)

Many many thanks to my wife, DeliaTS, for getting everything ready for this shoot (and taking the pictures, of course) and to our new bearded friend, Goat (and his pipes and suspenders and jolly goodwill) who is an even more perfect Pacific Northwestern version of Santa than I could have dreamed up. This is honestly one of my favorite things we’ve ever done for my site, making this shoot a better present than I hoped for or could have bought myself for holiday-time!

From Delia’s Vegas Trip

A couple of samples of things Delia shot on her birthday trip to Vegas:

Wish I could say I shot this, but I wasn’t even there! It was Damien Cain who captured this and all of the porn she made on her trip:

sculptural MTF trans goddess Delia

One of those lovely shots you want to recreate over and over and over again.

It would be awesome if we could have him shoot us together! I hope we can budget a trip to do that early in 2015.

Of course, I think when Delia shoots with Christian it’s MUCH more valuable than shooting with me, like in the “Runner’s High” video she recently posted for members:

Christian & Delia run & fuck

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I should try to shoot with Christian before he retires (and we should totally try to shoot threesome porn with him) — he talked about coming up to our area with his girlfriend, but we haven’t discussed it since then. He is such a hard worker and professional and shoots so much volume that he gets annoyed by people who seem lackadaisical about scheduling. I often appear that way, in part because I’m conflicted about being in front of the camera much at all. Not to mention totally petrified of taking more than a couple inches of his huge cock — I don’t feel like I’m built for or cut out to do mainstream hardcore porn. I do fantasize about working around that sometimes, though. 😉

Speaking of shooting, Delia is coming home tomorrow to try to shoot a solo set of me in natural light. I haven’t been in front of the camera much in a long time, so wish me luck!


Delia’s Home!

Pretty much just super happy to be with Delia after her Vegas trip. I didn’t go with her because she was celebrating her birthday by going to a bunch of Phish shows, and with my fear of flying and all of the work I need to do it just wasn’t worth the torture.

The biggest things we worked on today:

  1. selecting and ordering a new computer for her / our Seattle studio with a quad core processor that we hope will be up to the challenge of processing big HD videos. When we shoot outdoors, there is SO MUCH DATA with all of the lush detail of the woods, for example, that the machines we have just can’t keep up.
  2. proofreading/editing and correcting some typos and stuff in the DeliaTS.com members-only area, and discussing other improvements to make (updating the lists of favorite/recommended videos and picture sets, creating fancier templates/stylesheets for her galleries and videos, updating the “new member orientation” which I’ve been working on, etc.).
  3. just spending time together! I’m so happy just to be able to walk around with her to go get something to eat. Nothing fancy . . . just . . . walking. And eating in a 90% empty restaurant with shiny sports propaganda stuff on the TV. Pho and deep fried goodies and dipping sauce. It was like as soon as I saw my wife at the airport last night, my appetite came back.

I also have been considering how I could have some of my most-desired beautiful homemade porn content dreams come to life . . . without me being literally visible in all of them at all, and that being actually more fulfilling and wonderful for me.

Whether I get to shoot and share any of that or not, I’m appreciative and kind of dumbstruck by the amount of change and growth I’ve been experiencing every single day by taking the time to really FEEL sad or otherwise challenging feelings, try to LET GO of my attachments and will (while also honoring myself) and enjoy reality, and step back to see the range of beautiful possibilities available to us.

I’ve also been working on submitting to my need for a lot more structure and PAPER/WRITTEN tools and investments of time regarding planning, goal-setting, and managing my time and lots (and by lots I mean FUCK TONS) of relatively-complex projects. One of the hard parts of that is being forced to accept that there are a lot of projects and ideas I’m very attached to that I will never ever have time to do or see to fruition. When we were overworking ourselves just to do the basics of running all of our sites to meet porn site standards I could blame that for not having the freedom to excel or do or learn new things. Now that I’ve untied myself from that somewhat, I feel a lot of pressure and fear because if I don’t succeed at anything now, it will just be because I fucking suck.

I used to know what I needed to do to fill more hours in the week than I had, and there was no time for the extra parts of what I wanted to do. Now I need to select things I want to do that best exploit what is unique about me and us, and make sure I’m proud of them according to my own standards AND that I can make everything PAY OFF. Also, there’s still a ton of things I “need” to do just to make what we already have that’s been working somewhat to pay off. Like just maximize the potential of DeliaTS.com.  Obviously I am still super bound to many many attachments.

High Def video porn in WA woods

Images above from Delia’s “Wanking in the Woods” video: a perfect example of our need for better machines to do our jobs. We haven’t shot outside nearly as much in the past year as in years past, and feel sad about it. If we’re going to, though, and provide HUGE (1440×1080 pixels) HD videos for people to enjoy, our machines need to be able to render all of that.

If you look at the images above, they are not the same as some porn shot in a studio where there’s a white or one-color background; all of that detail and color and shading means more DATA. Add to that the trickiness of shooting in natural light from multiple angles with sun going in and out AND the difficulty of shooting with tons of beautiful green . . . making your skin look green, the need for color and exposure corrections means you need to do more in the editing process. With Delia’s working machine she has now, it just couldn’t handle processing the corrections for the big WMV HD version. You can still enjoy the smaller (720×400) WMV video and the MP4 versions (1280×720 HD and 720×400 standard def) though by becoming a member! Which also helps us pay for stuff like the computers we just bought and paying Uncle Sam and I hope some outdoor shooting excursions!


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