Ovulating?

Delia made an “emergency” trip home yesterday because of this:

ovulation testing

Surge DETECTED!

The day before (test strips 1 & 2) I had the thick clear egg-white-like goo, but I drank a lot of water so maybe the tests looked blank because of that. Then yesterday I had pinchy cramps on my left side and stuff.

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Cum Preservation

Because of my tipped uterus & the way my cervix points up, this position actually isn’t good for me to try to conceive (having hips THIS elevated actually isn’t optimal for anybody), but I did it just for fun and because it felt good after already spending a long time in other positions trying to bathe my cervix in semen.

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dimly lit creampie

The other (optimal) positions were: on all fours (with Delia continuing to fuck me from behind for a long time after she came), on my belly, on my belly with a pillow under my hips.

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She wants to do it again today. It’s pretty interesting, her getting more testosterone back after this many years blocking it.

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We’re having a super happy time today. We slept, we stretched, we prayed, we planned, we’ve done some work and we’ll do some more. We’re listening to jazzy Christmas tunes while I do dishes and she cooks scrambled eggs and bacon for lunch. It’s raining and after we eat we’re going to go run around in the shadowy wet winter woods.

Sex Between Shows

We had a date to stretch at 8:30 this morning — that was great! But I didn’t quite get enough sleep and wound up with a headache after my first camshow, so I “had to” take some headache medicine and a nap.

Only I didn’t just want a nap, especially after she showed me a video she shot of herself: erect and peeing in her panties outside, her legs trembling, touching herself in her wet underwear, then peeing some more.

I told her I couldn’t take a nap after that! I whined and cried and asked for her to take care of my aching cunt. Or get me some ice cream! But she was unrelenting.

So I’m not getting fucked OR getting ice cream?!?!?

I begged Delia to tell me she loves me and give me some hugs. IN BED.

I wound up getting fucked:

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Delia's pussy-stick all wet from being inside me.

AND got a creampie:

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And this isn't even the goopiest picture of my snatch from today!!

AND she went and procured brownies and Coffee Heath Bar Crunch ice cream!!

My life is very very good.

Then I did another webcam show and had another orgasm. And now I’m posting this. So your life is pretty good, too if you’ve been watching our cams and sites! You’re going to fucking LOVE that pee video of hers!

P.S. It was great having a handful of our really good fans in my shows today – thanks for keeping me company!

Early morning creampie nudie pic of the day

I was going to try to take a picture of something other than in-your-face sopping-wet-genitals today, but the thing of it is, I love my sopping wet genitals! So here’s a creampie from last night which was technically this morning (around three am):

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My cunt, sopping wet with semen!

I’d love to tell you all about it, but I’m fucking exhausted. CAN’T YOU JUST TASTE ALL THAT PECKERSNOT AND CUNTBUTTER, MY HUNGRY LITTLE CUM EATERS?!?

Goodbye, Creampie? A Break Up Story

Sorry this nudie pic is late… it was a stressful day in which I blew up when H. Rugaru backed out of a shoot at the last minute. Then I said a bunch of mad things and he said some shitty things and I said that if that’s how he feels then he has to leave tomorrow.

And then because I was so mad I actually forgot I said that & asked Delia when she & I were alone, “so what’s going on? Is he leaving? I feel like he’s supposed to leave tomorrow but do we really know that or did I make that up in my head?”

Delia looked at me strangely and said, “I think that’s the plan.”

And I was like, “okay…okay…but how do we know that’s the plan? I mean, who said so?

And my girlfriend gently looked into my crazy eyes and said, “you did.”

And I vaguely remembered saying it, and then I remembered why. And that it was the decision I had to make. Even if he doesn’t actually leave right away. Even if it means I’m an impatient controlling selfish asshole. I had to make that decision.

And hours later he and I fucked sweetly like maybe it was goodbye to all of this and here’s the picture and there probably won’t be any new ones like it to count-on or look forward to or make a meaningful collection out of:

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Dripping Rugaru cum out of my pussy, down my crack into a wet spot.

I’m tired. I’m sick. I’m stupid.

I did the dishes with my angry energy & tortured myself with the compulsion to throw the black-handled soup mug, the orange vase, the mismatched plates from auction and half a dozen coffee mugs, feeling bitterly deprived looking at the walls & windows I could feel my arms sending them through.

Not throwing them left me feeling exhausted & defeated so I went to the liquor store.

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This is about sex work. This is about addiction. This is about gender. This is about idealism and trust and disappointment and fear. This is about practicing love poorly. Without regret.

This is about what Picard says about space, the final frontier, and boldly going. And crying into his shoulder because of it.

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Trixie and Rugaru wearing helmets, practicing loving teamwork.

Seeking out new life. It’s about that, too. Finding it every day.

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I miss Delia. I miss myself. I miss quiet. I miss my illusions of control. I’m relieved in some ways and hopeful in others but really really sad, too.

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