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Yesterday I woke up NEEDING to fuck after having vivid, happy, kissing and sex dreams about a certain married man and two hot younger women with me somewhere in the middle.

With so much work on our plates I thought maybe my arousal would dissipate after breakfast and I could get cracking right away, but my desire to fuck just got more urgent so I asked Delia to meet me in bed after brushing our teeth and stuff (no, I’m not the type of person who needs everything to be clean, but sometimes it’s nice).

We turned on some music, kissed each other, groped each other, did some grinding, and fucked. Though we eventually wound up coming together in my favorite position with me on top, Delia served up some straightforward pumping in a variety of other positions first which I REALLY NEEDED. Just some rhythmic, direct, insistent fucking accompanied by confused images running through my head of a parade of people fucking me. It’s amazing how into Delia I can feel and so connected to her while at the same time my brain is populated by fantasies of fucking other people, too.

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Good news: today Delia’s new site, DeliaTS.com, is officially accepting new members!

Delia's New Site

If you haven’t checked Delia out recently, definitely hit her new pics page and the free video sample (I have a hand, literally, in some of the clips).

We finished it awhile ago but we before announcing it we had to get approval from our payment processor and Visa which takes times. Her new site is a continuation of the old one so I’m not sure how much of a difference it will make to current fans and members (if you are a member to one of our sites now, you automatically have access to this one, too, and all of our others). The big thing for us is that it’s in line with her identity as a transwoman and looks shinier and more up-to-date so we do a better job of accurately selling her. I know, that’s a big turn-off to some people, being reminded that we have to actually make money on our sites, but it SHOULD be a turn-ON; the more successful we are, the more and better porn we can make! Eventually we would love to shoot people for her old sites, both Trixie’s Houseboy AND DeliaCD, but right now we don’t have the time or money. Someday!

I am so much healthier physically than I was a year ago and think we’re at an age and approaching a stage in life where we might become more sexually adventurous with other people. Not right now, but soon. I’m feeling really frustrated mentally and physically because I have years of catching-up to do on geeky webmaster work — unstimulating desk-job stuff that requires a lot of concentration, patience, and sitting still staring at the computer for hours on end. It’s all stuff we need to finish make more money and pay our debts which are all coming to a giant head. I’m having a hard time not complaining about how I really want to be OUTSIDE enjoying my body or INSIDE FUCKING or dancing or doing more creative things with our time than soul-sucking technical stuff, but it has to be done and it WILL pay off. And there will be more fucking soon, I can FEEL it. Just not as soon as I want.

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We’ve got shows and members-only chat scheduled tomorrow night (Friday) and Saturday. Members CLICK HERE for our schedule/exact times and to gain entrance to them. Hope to see you there!

I must’ve had my head up my ass when I worried that reserving a cabin for three nights was too LONG for a porn-shooting trip without running water or electricity or phones or internet of any kind. More like NOT LONG ENOUGH.

Being in the woods on the Olympic Peninsula, the proper WET woods southwest of us (unlike what we have here in the dry rainshadow), always feels like heaven to me. I’m not exaggerating: HEAVEN. Like what it would/should look and feel like if there were to be that kind of a fantasy afterlife (except I wouldn’t have to be scared of having my scalp ripped off by a cougar in heaven, but I digress).

Anyway, it was great. FANTASTIC, the level of peace and tranquility I felt there. The lack of pressure and the way everything worked out just right. The way we had so much beautiful SPACE to sprawl out and shoot in with very little chance of intrusion. The way the weather couldn’t have been more perfect. The way we walked for miles.

And when we got home? I pretty much instantly fell apart into a nervous wreck.

It’s not that I think running off and living a “simple” life is the Answer to All My Problems or something I want on a daily basis (I don’t), but experiencing it for a few days did highlight some of the things that I desperately need to fix in real life (like not having so MANY options and obligations every second of every day).

It’s a small fix, but we’re going to get rid of DirecTV completely and of course just keep plugging away on the usual stuff with a better reminder of what we could have if we got ahead, just a little bit: the freedom to fall behind and drop out more often . . . AND make better porn because of it. It’s amazing how doing so much of my job every fucking day gets in the way of DOING MY JOB RIGHT.

Also, I have serious problems being distracted by every day life and PEOPLE and the noises they make and our computers and all of our shit, though, so coming home was like putting my head in a blender after all of that peace and quiet and fresh air. I know it sucks for voyeurs who want to watch a blissed-out horny woman rolling around in ecstasy or at least looking fresh and cute and bisected by cleavage but instead get me, frowning and muttering under my breath about how I’m going to shoot myself in the head if trivial problems and distractions interrupt my flow just one more fucking time. I am so sorry that has been the story of my lifecams for far too long.

Anyway, I would manually scratch all the skin off my left arm using the fingernails of my right if it would mean I could spend a third of my life in a cabin in the woods, peeing outside and eating pickled sausage on the back porch. Unfortunately I’ll have to go about things the hard way: plodding forward, tiny steps at a time.

FYI: I’ll try to post more about the magic of our little cabin experience. Also, I’m posting the rest of these pictures of me by the river on Monday for members. Delia is posting a set as I type this: see SAMPLE HERE – it is SO FUCKING AWESOME to be able to get almost any angle you want from whatever distance you want unconstrained by four walls.

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We have webcam shows (with masturbation and all that jazz) and members-only chat scheduled for tomorrow (Sunday) and Monday, so check out our schedule if you’re a member and perhaps we’ll see you then!