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Sometimes I really want to take pictures of my poop, but decide against it because our toilet is too gross.

Sometimes we’re afraid of the wrong things.

Lately I’m seeing how much of a pattern this is for me – worrying about small things while giving absolutely no thought or consideration to large, serious issues.

Sometimes I obsess over the wrong details, ignoring the obvious problems.

Maybe it’s not really God that’s in the details, it’s insanity.

Wondering why there’s been a deathly quiet here on my blog? It’s because I’m revamping in a major way and don’t want to post here and then have to manually import into the REVAMP.

I hope you won’t have to wait much longer; I’ve promised myself not to wait until it’s *perfect* to unveil it (partly because that won’t actually be possible; there are some things I can’t fix until it goes live), especially since we’ll be launching DeliaTS.com around the same time (the other reason why things are quiet here – we’re juggling multiple “projects” which is typical, but they’re feeling very urgent right now and sweet jesus I can’t even type about it, trying to convey the enormity of pressure, without starting to hyperventilate).

As usual, tons of things I *want* to blog about (like how Conan will never be the same anymore and I can’t stand his new set — really IMPORTANT things that make me cry myself to sleep or keep me up all night lamenting the passage of time and inevitability of change). Of course I’m still updating inside with porn for our members, but we have GOT to get this other shit done. So you can look at pretty fun things! I know you’re sick of hearing me bitch & moan about how outdated our sites are and wonder what is TAKING so long for us to just fix them already! I really wish I were skilled enough to snap my fingers and have it be done and over.

Anyway, we are going to be gone (much longer than I *want* to be gone) this week trying to shoot a bunch of porno in the woods so looks like it will be mid-September before you can see some of our work come to fruition. And actually be entertaining or mildly amusing or more absorbing than posts like this one.

Thanks for sticking with me, friends, foes and fans! I hope you will like our new site designs better than I like Conan’s new set with all those light blue backgrounds with all those distracting LINES.

I just *know* what goes around, COMES around and for every time I’ve shrieked at the tv screen about that annoying frosted section of plexiglass behind Conesy’s head or those flimsy-looking wooden borders around his super mario bros. screen with their annoying verticality and stick-ness, there will be ten people who HATE the way I’m changing up my site. It’s not soothing! It’s too busy! IT IS DIFFERENT, THEREFORE BAD! And holy shit, it’s totally not sexy at all! Poetic justice for all. Or at least for Trixie. ON THE WAY!

Oh dear GOD! THE LINES ARE NOT STRAIGHT! The lines behind Conan are not straight! They are not running perpendicular to the bottom of the frame!! Oh, Jesus KILL ME — those motherfucking lines are not straight, or if they are for a moment I know it only takes the slightest movement for everything to be out of alignment once again!! And that wooden base! IT’S TOTALLY NOT RUNNING PARALLEL TO THE BOTTOM OF THE FRAME! THE HORROR!!!!

Yes, the thoughts in my brain are TOTALLY FUCKING ANNOYING. And now you have some idea of why it takes me forever to finish anything that involves building things that are supposed to have straight lines. I can’t abide things being out of whack in relation to each other, yet I’m not smart or talented or patient enough to bring them INto alignment.

And that, my friends, is why I often have to lock myself in a dark room and bury myself under mounds of pillows to calm down.

Seriously, though; all of those lines are REALLY ill-advised for shooting any kind of moving pictures. And while I can actually tolerate them if I try, it’s impossible for me to actually RELAX with that mess of crookediness happening on the television screen.

Just checking in to say I’m alive with lots of fun, exciting things, and challenging stuff going on. Well, fun, exciting, and challenging TO ME. Most of it wouldn’t translate into great blog reading, some of it I can’t post in the kind of detail that makes it worth your time, and mostly I’m just trying to get some other stuff done.

I was going to post some pictures along with this to make it more interesting, but blogger doesn’t want to let me. And I don’t have extra time to do workarounds, so . . . later.

I know the blog still looks like crap and has a bunch of unfinished stuff. I have a new plan for attacking that, though, and am working on it now, along with 497 other things.

Note to people who’ve emailed me recently or in the past and haven’t heard back yet: it’s not you, it’s me. FOR REAL. And you’re not alone. It’s just extremely rare for me to have the spare computer time and enough brain power to communicate coherently, even when it’s something that seems (and maybe IS) really simple. Better people with bigger brains (and asses that don’t fall asleep after sitting at the computer as many hours as I do) might be able to do it, but I’m not one of them. I have been known, however, to respond to email even when it’s many years old, so I hope you don’t plan on changing your email address.